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Right Now

it's all out to sacrifice for you
you know what i meant by that
taking the pain for you may be a great and humble sacrifice from me to you
you can never know what ifeel everytime you fall sick
i'm not talking about the normal sickness everyone had but the childhood sickness you had until now
yes you may say it's ok because you can handle it
did you spare a thought about me?
do you ever think i can handle looking at you being that way?
you should know the answer

just so you know i won't get irritated whenever you fall sick
you're scared that i will be frustrated with you always getting sick don't you?
well don't, i'm always there whenever you need me
sometime a text or a call from you assuring that you're fine is enough for me

hmm...lets just say i don't know how to put this in words, but deep down you should know i don't want anything to happen to you.

you're under a lot of stress lately, maybe i should a step back for awhile.
don't take me in the wrong way, i want you to know that your studies is far more important than any other thing except for your health.
we can catch things up after the exams.

I Love You...

Heartbeaters

OKGO-ers

Venue: Lau Pa Sat
Date: Friday,28-08-09
Time:5pm-11pm
Participants: The Heartbeat of SE

hah, the outing was fun.
it was a seafood galore and everyone were stuffing themselves, hahahx
Qin's bro tagged along which made it more exciting
hahax
we should do this more often aite guys!!!

p.s. S.H.M.I.L.Y.

Down The Drain

A Silent Kill

do you feel like a man when you push her around?
do you feel better now when she falls to the ground?

A Peaceful Sadness

A Beautiful Misery

it happened yet again...

p.s. S.H.M.I.L.Y

Tick Tock Tick Tock

Yes or No
??

p.s. S.H.M.I.L.Y

Up,Up And Away!

Cross Your Heart

watched a movie yesterday...

my version of movie;

once upon a merry land of nothing but happiness
a couple of height of 157 & 170 went to watch a movie at JP
they stumbled upon nothing but laughter

the girl cried 3 times while the movie is shown
such a sentimental girlfriend the guy had

on they way sending the girl home, both became kids and laughed at each other's antics
the guy will always remember 'i'm the kraken from the sea!'

they had a long talk and the guy came to realize that he had to do something
he vowed to himself that he wanted to make this girl happy at all times
he do not want to see the girl suffer anymore
he will shower this petite girl of his with love and care

promises are meant to be broken but every individual have a choice not to break it
this guy do not want to break it

The End....

p.s. Stay Mine Always

Stormy Clouds

"Cause I was born to tell you I love you

and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine

Stay with me tonight "

even though these words weren't mine, i want you to know that is how i felt after the 'stormy clouds'
i don't have the intention for it to happen. You know i know.
Too much rain were shed on that day.
I will make sure the rest of the days won't be stormy anymore.
I don't want to lose someone like in the downpour.
You're too precious to me.
I want to be your shelter which will protect you from the lightning and thunder.


Thanks Shahril, you helped me alot on that day.
You made me come back to my senses.
I'm touched over what you've done to save me and Mas.
You're a good brother to me.

Thanks Hilmi, you been advising me to take things slowly and chill down.
I appreciate it a lot.

Yong Ching, you always were there to guide me out from the rain.
You seem to know whem i'm at a fall sometimes.
I really want to say thank you to you for always asking me to do the right thing.

Yun, you're a good friend to me.
Always there when i need you.
You never fail to be beside me whenever i'm falling.

Thanks Twinny, i love you alot.
Thanks for helping me taking care of Mas like last Fri.
I dont know what i could do without you.

P.s;stay mine always

Hate Me And I Dont Blame You

Kept postponing it since last week
i feel like crap doing so
not that i intend in doing so, the situation just makes it impossible...
i hope you understand
i feel hopeless
i made you lost all hope
you were looking forward to it
i destroyed that forwardness of yours
yet again i made you dissapointed of me
i know you said its ok...
it can never be ok,and you know it
how long must this continue?
failure in ,life thats what i am now
i dont blame you if you're cold or even angry with me
hmm...
im truly sorry...

i will do what it takes to mend everything...

Un-Invited Feelings

Deceit
Spiteful
Cold
Abhorrence
Detest
Bitterness
Enmity

add them together and you get hatred
the perfect emotion right now for me

idc who you are
just dont assume things which i didnt do
its irritating
so what if you know about my past
that does not mean im will stay like that always
people change so please give me air to breathe
im big enough to think what right for me
i will take all the responsibilties for every single things ive done ok
dont bother texting me if all you do is to pull me down
please get the facts right before you throw assumptions on me
for every bad thigs i did you regard it as the end of the world
have you ever thought of my privacy when you checked through the messages
what if i did that to you too??
you will falre up dont you???
so have some thought on me also...
i have enough...
you literally went overboard today...
you've been cold towards me since the starting of the week...
you pin pointed me non-stop
i do have feelings
you expect me just to care about your feelings...
you're sick and i understand that
but must i restrict myself from doing anything just to make you happy??
i rarely go out nowdays because of this...
my sec frens are dissapointed in me cos i didnt follow up with their activities and outings...
i kept giving them excuses, lame stupid excuses...
i really had enough...
im becoming numb...
i will change...
i will make sure of that
just remember i still have the mask in me dont forget that

p.s S.H.M.I.L.Y
pss Your tuttut boy wont be showing himself for quite sometime